I started tinkering on this here website at about 8 o'clock last night. The tinkering became heavy-handed and I unintentionally deleted vast content from the mobile site. Being the noob that I am here, I didn't know how to get it back...until I did. It was now 10:30 PM. With my melatonin now overwhelmed with some late-night victory dancing, I watched videos on YouTube until almost midnight. I'm not sure if you have experienced both the blessing and the curse of the content on YouTube, but last night I am embraced its curse; mindless wondering.
I adjusted my alarm for an hour later. My running shoes jilted for another love, sleep. I promised myself I would run after work. I don't run after work so this promise was destined for demise.
I got home early, spent too much time on the phone with T-Mobile, and I sat to eat toasted sourdough bread slathered with raspberry jam. Side note - if you ever roll through our little town of Chehalis, be sure to stop by Market Street Bakery for some sourdough. It's the best the planet has seen. I don't exaggerate.
With my pre-dinner on it's way to my belly, I turned to YouTube for some entertainment. I've refused TikTok, but YouTube has added Shorts. It has the same effect. So now I'm scrolling. My brain has checked out, dopamine is simmering, and I am getting ready for an evening of mindless nothing.
Then this:
This was enough motivation to get me out of my chair and into shorty shorts and into my on-again, off-again shoes. The run was on.
I wasn't speedy, nor did I look as graceful as @thefashionjoggger (this is why I run in the dark), but I was at peace, or at least running towards it. My legs were moving, the rain fell in drizzles, and I was doing something other than scrolling; I was keeping a promise to myself, one I had broken hundreds of times...and that felt kick-ass.
I slowed at the driveway and walked a block to cool down. Despite the mid-40s temperature I was warm. Hat and shirt peeled off. The cool rain falling on my exposed skin. Life was palpable from the outside in. I chose to be a participant and not a witness tonight. I am awake.
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